sorry for the double post yesterday..not that anyone reads these...
but I've decided it's time to move on.
it's not about the past,
or what could have been,
i need to focus on the now, the present and quite possibly the near future.
i just don't want to get ahead of myself...because when i do, my hopes run high and ultimately leave me in a low state.
part of the reason of the ultimate failure may be partly my fault- i refuse to open up and share my feelings...it's sort of a survival skill, i don't need to be hurt so i just won't open my mouth. plus, i already have a pessimistic mind set, most of the time I'm talking to someone, i feel as if they don't care what i have to say.
i'll get over the fact that he'll never text me unless i text him first or demand he talk to me, i have to get over the fact he's hung up and in a mindset where no one else will ever be as good as her, i have to get over the fact that he'd take up way too much of my time and I'd ultimately get bored and irritated and regret everything.