Tuesday, March 31, 2009

don't want anyone else gettin hurt

your surveys depress me.
i feel bad at how much your life sucks.
your myspace blogs..are fucking teardrop worthy..for you.
i'm not saying i don't care...
actually...quite the opposite.
but i'm not one to go and grab your hand and stand up against fire with you because i'm not sure if that's what you need.
am i the friend that has to make light of the situation? to make you laugh and forget about the bad shit?
or am i the friend that needs to sit there with you, listen to you rant and rave, cry with you, comfort you and do whatever it is to make the pain go away?
i hate that i need to be told what to do but i feel it makes things a hell of a lot worse than it has to be.
edward is scaring bella.
tomorrow is an employmentless day and i'll be home..probably.
i just want to work full time or something.
i hate being broke.
i hate the bitch who does shit and never has money to pay me back but always has money to buy shit they don't need..fuck i seriously typed "kneed"
i'm such a fucking pessimist and i LOVE it.
i went to LA and i went to the mall and went to a puppy store and am desperatley seeking a boyfriend who will buy me a puppy, let me keep it at his house- who will buy shit for it and take care of it - and basically i just want to play with the damn thing.
why does my little brother know so much about Twilight? i swear i don't tell him shit unless he asks but he's nailin it and i am flabbergasted.
i often play the deleted scenes in my laugh and have to giggle.
i just found out what my hw is for fashion..fuck i'm scared. idk what to do. or who to do it on.
and have i mentioned i neglected to begin my Salvador Dali paper? come on! it's 1000 words i CAN do it.
did i mention how i won't be in the continental US next week? [wait is Hawaii part of the continental us? no cause it's not on the continent right? idk..i should ..no YOU should look it up!] we're[my family and i] are going to celebrate my mother's birhtday - it's the 9th of April if you care- and i plan on escaping California..mostly Sacramento..and school and everything and just not giving a damn...
i'm happy natalia is going this summer.
hopefully she doesn't get in over her head.
despite the fact i didn't get into the even Saturday..i'm happy.
it was a stressful,sucessful,adventerous day and i wouldn't change a thing..well except maybe by shoes.

i think i like someone.
but hey he's a horrible person.
no he's not.
maybe he is.
i hardly know him.
i DON'T know him.
we couldn't be happy together for long which could ruin things and that's NEVER a good thing.

but I'm geting ahead of myself
the fucker doesn't even see me like that. oh well.
i'd just compare him to RTP anyways.

he says "17" and "complications" in that scary weird voice..
i'm such a twitard..wtf that's the worst name for a fan

anyways. i'm off to stalk celebrites and find some historical person [pre 1900s] to do my hw on.

i still have to pee.

Sunday, March 29, 2009

see u in the dark

is stuck in my head.
i haven't updated.
i have nothing to say. except i do. i just think it'd all go over easier in video format..plus i don't like repeating myself [ but i probably do it anwyays]
no one reads eachothers blog.
no one cares.
this is just an outlet.
i meet celebrites and that was cool.
further explanation in a video coming soon[?]

Monday, March 9, 2009

Let your heart meet mine

page 276 of Eclipse.. it's where i've left off.
on the 27th i'll be leaving for los angeles right away!
the next night i'll be at pauley pavillion.
is this a new york accent i'm listening to?
this is so twilight related because Taylor Lautner is supposed to be on air.
i want to go to urban tomorrow and look for a dress for the events
my nose itches.
i haven't blogged in a while so basically summing it up
i'm still addicted to twilight..saw it 7 times in theatres.. counting down the days to the dvd release
i don't like anyone like that anymore
i am satisfied with my life...
even though i probably fail in all my classes idc
because this is bombbbbbbb

Sunday, March 1, 2009

It’s lucky I’m clever Cause if I didn’t know better I’d believe only that which I’d heard

dadnapped is on.
this movie is stupid.
i was watching Twilight but the television is on and i don't feel like putting on some headphones. My head hurts. I was being antisocial last night. People asked to hang out and i was like "no. sorry" i just wasn't in the mood. I have homework to do...but i'm BIG on procrastination. I watched some recorded videos from Friday's BlogTV and i was like soo dissapointed with what i found out. But it's okay. I need to move some posters around..maybe i'll do that today. Austrailian people are HILARIOUS. the tv is distracting me..I don't like how people tell me things i don't care about..not that they should know what i don't care to hear about.. i mean we're friends..aren't i supposed to find things my friends say at least a little interesting? I want to see the Jonas movie again. I realize i "tweet" a lot. Yum my mom is making lunch. Aaron is playing with the wii mote gun laser thingy. Oh speaking of that kid.. aaron and i watched Twilight last night. He was asking SO MANY questions and he asked if Jacob was a vampire..i said "no!" and then he said "is he a werewolf?" and i said "how'd you know?!" and he said "i dunno!"
funny things he said popped up randomly throughout the movie..like edward being pepperspray...
my family buys a lot of sweets...
i realized that.
i want my Twilight DVD..oh apparently TARGET has a 3 disc package available for pre-order..i think it's 3 anyways maybe it's 2 but either way...go on and look it up yourself.

i wanna marry him.