Sunday, January 18, 2009

i'm livin life day to day

I was thinking,
maybe i should just quit The Daily Vloggers...
I confess...
i'm kind of over it.
YouTube has lost it's appeal and with school starting...
it's not going to be fun having to do a vlog every week.
I've sort of enjoyed the past few weeks
that I've been slacking.

Mean Girls is on.

Some sara Paxton movie is on eye itches..before 2 i want my room done.
I'm having a baby and that is NO fun.
I figure if i don't get into the main room..i'll just deal with it and i'll occupy my time with other stuff.
I finally got my chocolate chip muffin..I've been craving one for about 2 weeks or so now.

So this guy, let's call him Nigel, he decided to open up to me about his relationship issues, apparently Chelsea dumped him in their non exclusive relationship. I wasn't sure if he was looking for comfort or what..i just don't know how to deal with him.
I can't make his pain go away...and usually..when people have relationship's girls asking for advice..being as how i don't know what kind of girl Chelsea is, I can't help him out. I don't know how a girl like her thinks. I don't know the entire situation, and i don't think Nigel wants to open up about it.
I tried reading Eclipse for the 2nd time, but as much as i hated New Moon, i need to re-read that before i try and tackle Eclipse. But i need kimberly to finish so i can get back to it.

I guess i've lost my craving to's dying i still have many books on my list to read but nothing is capturing me..maybe if i [i cannot] drop classes this semester i'll free up some time.

My body hurts. it's in pain but i'll endure it.
I've been excited for today for days now and now that it has finally come..i must seems..boring.

Should I lie and say it didn't make me happy Nigel thought i could help him? whatever.
I just want to be friends.
Is that so hard to ask for?
Oh and another thing..i don't like when boys ask me to "hang out" or say things like "i want to see you."
because to a boy that doesn't say things like that it could just be like "Geeze alana, he just wants to hang out you're overreacting"
but to a girl whose been told things like that it's like "what the hell is that supposed to mean? what is he saying?"

i wish everyone could just know everything and nothing at the same time.
i'm just not open to judgemental conversations so i'll leave it at that.

OMG Get A Clue is on!


  1. have you read the Georgia books (Angus, Thongs, and Full Frontal Snogging... etc.)? She's always talking about how she doesn't know what boys mean when they say "see you later." LOL, I guess we'll never know.

  2. no i have not read those...maybe i should.
    agh i hate the stupid boy language that will never make sense to me. like how do we know if they mean what they say?